I was breaking up with a boyfriend, and as I chided him for lying about loving me; after all how could he love me and do the things he did.  How could he do things he had promised he would never do, things he knew would hurt me?  How could he betray my trust?  Clearly he didn’t value what we had or he wouldn’t have risked tarnishing this precious thing, he wouldn’t have diminished this thing of value by recklessly mistreating what should have been guarded, honored, prized….


As I went on and on berating him for his lack of commitment to our relationship, I listened to the words I spoke and I heard God’s gentle voice speaking those very words to me.   I couldn’t escape the conviction that in pursuing my own desires, I had left my first Love… and it amazes me still that He stands always with open arms awaiting my return.


What love is this….?


“The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with loving-kindness I have drawn you.”   Jeremiah 31:3